Old age, I decided, is a gift.
I am now, probably for the first time in my life, the person I have always
wanted to be. Oh, not my body! At times I may despair over my body the
wrinkles, the baggy eyes, and the sagging butt.
And often I am taken aback by that old person that lives in my mirror, but I
don’t agonize over those things for long. I would never trade my amazing
friends, my wonderful life, my loving family for less grey hair or a flatter
As I’ve aged, I’ve become more kind to myself, and less critical of myself.
I’ve become my own friend. I don’t chide myself for eating that extra
cookie, or for not making my bed, or for buying that silly cement gecko that I
didn’t need, but looks so avante garde on my patio. I am entitled to overeat,
to be messy, to be extravagant. I have seen too many dear friends leave
this world too soon; before they understood the great freedom that comes with
Whose business is it if I choose to read or play on the computer until 4 a.m and sleep until noon?
I will dance with myself to those wonderful tunes of the 40’s and 50’s, and
if I, at the same time, wish to weep over a lost love I will.
I will walk the beach in a swim suit that is stretched over a bulging body,
and will dive into the waves with abandon if I choose to, despite the pitying
glances from the bikini set. They, too, will get old.
I know I am sometimes forgetful. But there again, some of life is just as
well forgotten … and I eventually remember the important things
Sure, over the years my heart has been broken.How can your heart not break
when you lose a loved one, or when a child suffers, or even when a beloved
pet gets hit by a car? But broken hearts are what give us strength and
understanding and compassion. A heart never broken is pristine and sterile and will
never know the joy of being imperfect.
I am so blessed to have lived long enough to have my hair turn grey, and to
have my youthful laughs be forever etched into deep grooves on my face. So
many have never laughed, and so many have died before their hair could turn
silver. I can say “no”, and mean it. I can say “yes”, and mean it.
As you get older, it is easier to be positive.
You care less about what other people think.
I don’t question myself anymore. I’ve even earned the right to be wrong.
So, to answer your question, I like being old.
It has set me free.
I like the person I have become. I am not going to live forever, but while
I am still here, I will not waste time lamenting what could have been, or
worrying about what will be. And I shall eat dessert every single day.
” Just Remember….It’s the journey, not the destination “